Blood, spit and vomit

I wish
I wish I could grab this feeling
throw it away
like I've thrown my life.
I wish I could get it all back.
Remember the days when you were a kid, and simply running outside made you happy?
What happened to that?

Now I'm but an empty shell
nothing but the devil's plaything
nothing but a slut
abandoned in the mid-winters darkness.
w o r t h l e s s .
I think I'm starting to believe in hell
because every day
feels like I'm there already.

***

Omaa tekstiä. Kaikki totta paitsi helvettiin viittaava löpinä. Tai siis. Onhan tää helvetillistä tää eläminen joskus, mutta en nyt silti kykene uskomaan että asiat olisi niin mustavalkoisia.